huiqin..

I feel that I have to let this out of my chest.. So here goes..

Well after a few weeks of trying and still unsuccessful, I guess it's time for me to let go.. I know it's really hard for me to do so but I have to.. Afterall, I do not know if this is love.. It may well be juz an infatuation/crush or worse.. Lust.. Hence, I have to end this thing right now and stop being selfish.. I'll let that person have her own life back and I'm gonna stop bothering her.. I'm starting to feel like I'm such a jerk if I continue on like this.. I'll have to stop the selfish beast inside of me and destroy it.. Kill it for my own good..

But come to think of it, what wrong have I ever done to her? I didnt do anything wrong.. So why should I feel sorry for myself? There goes my selfish self again.. Oh well, as long as she's happy, I'm gonna be okay.. Eventhough that particular day was the last day I was ever gonna see her, I'll have to live with it.. I'm done chasing.. Enough..

Anyway, sis's birthday is today and I would like to wish her a very happy 15th birthday.. May all your wishes come true.. I'm gonna buy her present later on..

And sorry to whoever who reads this entry but still do not understand a single thing.. Sorry for taking up your time by writing this unmeaningful entry..


there's never a right time to say goodbye
but i gotta make the first move
'cause if i don't you gonna start hating me
3/16/2007 03:15:00 PM

goal scored!